EMDR: Eye Movement Desensitization And Reprocessing I’m not spending a lot of time explaining how Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) specifically works. My reasoning for this is that I can focus too much on intellectualizing a process rather than letting the process happen. For me, this can be an avoidance tactic rather than diving…
Tag: Mindfulness
Living With Borderline Personality Disorder – Empathic Abilities & Intentional Interventions
Feeling The World Having BPD means I emotionally feel the world much more intensity than the general population. To me, this is a super power and a curse. Before I was properly diagnosed, I did not know what was causing my over-the-top emotional reactions to the world. I felt cursed as I could not understand…
Living With Borderline Personality Disorder – Not PTSD – It’s Emotions – Borderline Style
Not PTSD I have spent the last two decades scared to death that something hidden in my memory was the reason my body floods with fear when “triggered” by specific and/or not so identifiable situations. I could not understand or link the intense emotions to the PTSD Flashback symptom of feeling like I was back…
Living With BPD & HPD – Rambling Through Confusion Towards Clarity
Confusion & Clarity It is Day 11 since my diagnosis. I don’t know how long I will keep track of how many days I’m into my diagnosis. For me, this feels like a way of tracking my processing. I am reading Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies by Charles H. Elliott & Laura L. Smith. This…
Forget Everything I’ve Said – I’ve Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder
The Beginning of a New Journey February 9th, 2022. Diagnosis day, again. Last diagnosis days were over 20 years ago. This included four different diagnosis by experts – four different opinions on why I was the way I was. I’m over 20 years of living with a brain I somehow knew wasn’t operating properly. As…
Be Your Own Hero
Flashback To September 1997 I was 27 years old when I first realized I had to be the hero in my life story. This profound realization happened during my 28 day stay in a program for addictions. During the cool down after an aerobics class, the instructor Marina played the song Hero by Mariah Caray….