A chapter of my life I would title “The Hard Years” would be the decades I struggled with mental health misdiagnoses and alcoholism. What got me through it? I had a deep desire to “fix” my inability to move up from the bottom of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs, as well as stop feeling stuck in…
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An Intentional Need For Speed
Originally Published: February 15th, 2025 2026 While driving, I tend to have a heavy foot on the gas pedal. I tend to drive beyond the speed limit, especially on the highway. This is intentional, and I am very aware while driving to be on the lookout for ghost police cars and marked patrol vehicles. I’m…
A Happiness Inventory
I can’t sleep. I had a few thoughts monkeying around my head, so I thought I would make a pot of coffee and write. As Michael and I continue to settle on our property while he builds our dome home, I think about what it means to be happy. My journey into and across adulthood…
Celebrating Another First Year – This Time With Alcoholics Anonymous
The Trigger My newest sobriety date is: August 1st, 2023 yesterday, I celebrated 365 days of continuous sobriety. I was completely out of sorts for most of the day. Why? My day started with an early morning 12 Step Zoom Meeting followed by an intense trigger about what happened when I first entered recovery 28…
Living With BPD & HPD – Rambling Through Confusion Towards Clarity
Confusion & Clarity It is Day 11 since my diagnosis. I don’t know how long I will keep track of how many days I’m into my diagnosis. For me, this feels like a way of tracking my processing. I am reading Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies by Charles H. Elliott & Laura L. Smith. This…
Living With Borderline Personality Disorder – Introduction to Symptoms & Causes
Mixed Emotions and Foggy Brain I’m 6 days into my diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD). As of right now, it seems my therapist is focusing on BPD. I do not know very much about HPD, yet. I’ve the good fortune of a Monday snow day, turning the regular 2-day…