The Tree of Faulty Core Beliefs My therapist explained The Tree of Faulty Core Beliefs to me. This tree represents the layers of our subconscious that contribute to negative thinking patterns (cognitive distortions) in our lives. The Faulty Core Identity is the “soil” that nourishes the seed of unhealthy beliefs, often formed during early childhood….
Category: My BPD & HPD & Alcoholism
Cognitive Processing Therapy: Understanding Stuck Points
As I continue on my 12-week run of Cognitive Processing Therapy (CPT), I am starting to experience its healing results. I wrote: Cognitive Processing Therapy: A Path To Healing From Trauma as an introduction to CPT. Below is a brief overview of CPT by the American Psychiatric Association: Cognitive Processing Therapy (CPT) is a structured form of cognitive-behavioral therapy designed to help individuals process and overcome the effects of trauma, particularly in treating Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Overview of CPT CPT is generally delivered…
Cognitive Processing Therapy: A Path To Healing From Trauma
I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD) on February 9th, 2022. Since then, I have focused on learning about them. I’ve explored how they manifest in me, with the use of Dialectical Behaviour Therapy Skills (DBT) to cope. A recent Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) assessment was conducted by…
Living With Histrionic Personality Disorder – Suggestible & Easily Influenced
Suggestible & Easily Influenced I recognize suggestible and easily influenced as a pathological style of people pleasing to the point where I adopted another’s value to be accepted by them, as well as a way to retain their attention. While taking an Addictions Counselling Course back in 1999, the psychologist teaching Counselling Skills Levels I…
From Anxiety To Sobriety: My Life Journey From 52 – 56
From 52 – 53 April 25th, 2021 – April 25th, 2022 Michael and I settled into life in the little cabin we were staying in in Upper Vaughn. Michael continued to design our house and clear our property when possible. I was navigating the latest outbreaks of COVID while working in a junior high school….
Living With Histrionic Personality Disorder – Preoccupation With Appearance
Preoccupation With Appearance I believe I am at the lower end of this HPD symptom continuum because I have not nor will ever have any sort of plastic surgery or Botox to “improve” my appearance or chase after my youth. Why? Two words: Shania Twian. She does not even look like herself as a result…
Living With Histrionic Personality Disorder – A Compulsive Desire For Attention
A Compulsive Desire For Attention While growing up, I have select memories of being told by those around me that (as a result of my behaviour) I was looking for attention. As an adult, I still struggle with a compulsive desire for attention. I struggle to feel second to someone. I have this compulsive need…
Overthinking & The Joys Of Living My Twenty-Four Hour AA Program
I’m an overthinker. Years of therapy, self-analyzation, questioning my ability to feel truly myself, to understand my life, who I am, why I am here, why was I so deeply unhappy – what is my purpose, and so on were a daily habit for me. Why did I feel so deeply disconnected from myself as…