I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD) on February 9th, 2022. Since then, I have focused on learning about them. I’ve explored how they manifest in me, with the use of Dialectical Behaviour Therapy Skills (DBT) to cope. A recent Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) assessment was conducted by…
Category: My BPD & HPD & Alcoholism
Living With Histrionic Personality Disorder – Suggestible & Easily Influenced
Suggestible & Easily Influenced I recognize suggestible and easily influenced as a pathological style of people pleasing to the point where I adopted another’s value to be accepted by them, as well as a way to retain their attention. While taking an Addictions Counselling Course back in 1999, the psychologist teaching Counselling Skills Levels I…
From Anxiety To Sobriety: My Life Journey From 52 – 56
From 52 – 53 April 25th, 2021 – April 25th, 2022 Michael and I settled into life in the little cabin we were staying in in Upper Vaughn. Michael continued to design our house and clear our property when possible. I was navigating the latest outbreaks of COVID while working in a junior high school….
Living With Histrionic Personality Disorder – Preoccupation With Appearance
Preoccupation With Appearance I believe I am at the lower end of this HPD symptom continuum because I have not nor will ever have any sort of plastic surgery or Botox to “improve” my appearance or chase after my youth. Why? Two words: Shania Twian. She does not even look like herself as a result…
Living With Histrionic Personality Disorder – A Compulsive Desire For Attention
A Compulsive Desire For Attention While growing up, I have select memories of being told by those around me that (as a result of my behaviour) I was looking for attention. As an adult, I still struggle with a compulsive desire for attention. I struggle to feel second to someone. I have this compulsive need…
Overthinking & The Joys Of Living My Twenty-Four Hour AA Program
I’m an overthinker. Years of therapy, self-analyzation, questioning my ability to feel truly myself, to understand my life, who I am, why I am here, why was I so deeply unhappy – what is my purpose, and so on were a daily habit for me. Why did I feel so deeply disconnected from myself as…
Living With Histrionic Personality Disorder – Sexually Provocative Behaviour
Sexually Provocative Behavior It was January, 1997. At 27 years old, I was going for it. I wanted to be a somebody in Halifax – in the up-and-coming explosion of film and television productions throughout Nova Scotia. As newly ordained and completely naive manager (and soon-to-be scapegoat for the restaurant’s failure) of Robert McKelvie’s Pastavino…
Living With Histrionic Personality Disorder – Disproportionate Emotional Reactions
Disproportionate Emotional Reactions This HPD symptom is more challenging to unpack as a result of BPD’s strong emotional responses. Both seem to be similar in that disproportionate emotional responses were cultivated in early childhood as attention seeking behaviours – somebody please notice me and my feelings. However, if I dig a little deeper – HPD’s…