Originally Published: February 7th, 2025
2026
Wow, I remember that fear and anxiety I felt this time last year about my Jeep and RV struggles.
This winter we turn the refrigerator off when it gets cold. This is working.
My Jeep is very happily parked, with her new windshield.
And the dome’s drywall phase of the upstairs living space is almost finished, with Michael starting to paint.
This is exciting, as maybe – just maybe – we can move from the RV into the dome this upcoming March Break!
I tend to turn to junk food when I don’t feel safe and my nervous system is activated into fight, flight, freeze or fawn.
So, what do I need a break from?
Eating junk food to emotionally self-sooth myself.
Changing this self-soothing, bad-diet habit into healthier choices.
Recently, during a Recovery Dharma meeting, a member said:
What does *Mary want more of?
*Named changed
When I want more of something – that craving for something to make me feel better – and make unhealthy choices, I suffer.
So, I to stop the sugar suffering and eat less of it.
S, 🌻
2025
Wherever I Go, There I Am – To Take A Break If Needed
The refrigerator stopped working. This happened last winter. too. While our RV is winterized, the refrigerator slide-out is not meant for multiple days of exposure to frigid, negative double-digit temperatures.
So, we deal with it. Better than we did last year.
This year we are buying a small fridge to put out in the garden/exercise shed, instead of borrowing one.
It is what it is.
My beloved Jeep’s engine light is on.
Long story short, a neighbour is a mechanic who fixed my Jeep recently and had a conversation with Michael about the costs and troubles with Jeeps. He seemed to recommend selling it before real problems begin.
My Jeep is part of my identity. Sounds silly and materialistic, but I don’t mean it in that way.
The moment I sit in my Jeep, I feel like I am in a little bubble of Stephanie Happiness.
Last night I drove home from horseback riding in a whiteout snow storm. At some points, I couldn’t even tell where the road was.
I felt safe driving in my Jeep.
My Jeep, Daisy Rae, got me home safely.
One other point our mechanic neighbour said is that I could just drive with the engine light on and just deal with issues when they happen. His explanation was not as simple as that, this is my interpretation of it.
And that is what I am going to do. After a heartfelt discussion with Michael about how much my Jeep means to me, and how safe I felt driving in a snow storm, we agreed Daisy Rae isn’t going anywhere.
So, I take a break. Exhale. Exercise. Let everything sink in.
Because wherever I go, there I am – to take a break when needed.
S, ❄️☃️❄️
I’m glad your Jeep isn’t going anywhere.
Me, too!! 🌻💛