CPT Themes
There are five themes that are areas in life that were affected by trauma or as a result of trauma.
These themes are:
- Safety
- Trust
- Power/Control
- Esteem
- Intimacy
Each theme takes the view of how I view myself and how I view others.
What Is Power & Control?
This is the belief I can solve problems and meet challenges that I may face .
As well as the belief that I can control others or future events, related to others – including people in power.
I think about power and control in terms of what I have power and control over, and the biggest struggle for me is my perception of any given situation and what influence I have in it.
The switch is moving from seeing myself as a non-entity (trauma based) to an empowered woman with choices.
The difficult part is navigating the trauma response of fear when it happens.
But, this is the learning curve of CPT – to move from the cycle of trauma and into empowerment.
It won’t happen over night.
The goal is to at least put a crack in the core belief/stuck point of powerlessness.
I think about the profound freedom in letting something go.
Something terrifying, too.
The need for certainty can be overwhelming.
But the difference is that I am no longer a powerless child or young adult.
I am an empowered adult woman navigating the core beliefs and stuck points created by my younger selves.
Healing takes time.
So, I practice saying to myself:
What ever will be, will be.
And whatever will be: I can handle.
Because the future is hard to see.
Therefore: Que Sera Sera.
Add to this is the spiritual practice within the 12-Step program I attend, of letting go to a Higher Power.
This is trusting in a benevolent force outside of myself that all will be well when I Let Go and Let God (of my understanding).
I’m not quite there yet as the God I grew up with was a punishing, judgemental God with a list of rules that, if not followed – I went to hell.
A religion where its followers put their beliefs over that of another human who may walk a different path in their beliefs or sexuality. A religion that divides families – even countries.
I just cannot understand this.
So, I return to:
Que Sera Sera.
And GOD = Group of Drunks (in an AA meeting) or a Quantum Entanglement like Supernatural Benevolent Energy, God – but does this God have a consciousness? That’s the mystery.
The mystery of faith.
S, 🌻
