Not PTSD I have spent the last two decades scared to death that something hidden in my memory was the reason my body floods with fear when “triggered” by specific and/or not so identifiable situations. I could not understand or link the intense emotions to the PTSD Flashback symptom of feeling like I was back…
Tag: BPD
Living With Borderline Personality Disorder – Strong Opinions & Identity Crisis
Strong Opinions Lately, I’ve been finding the world hard work. There are so many strong opinions on so many issues, I feel like I am drowning in an ocean of them. This is wrong, opinion. This is right, opinion. Actually, this struggle with the world isn’t new for me. On August of 2016, I blogged…
Living With Borderline Personality Disorder – Bits On Biosocial Theory & Learning To Ride Out Intense Emotions Rather Than Focusing On Why I Am Having Them
Searching For Authentic Self This week my therapeutic journey has been focusing on authentic self and mindfulness. Authentic self is something I’ve been searching for, for as far back as I can remember. In my early twenties, I remember searching out ways to get to know who I am, and find where I fit into…
Living With Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Rambling Through Confusion Towards Clarity
Confusion & Clarity It is Day 11 since my diagnosis. I don’t know how long I will keep track of how many days I’m into my diagnosis. For me, this feels like a way of tracking my processing. I am reading Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies by Charles H. Elliott & Laura L. Smith. This…
Living With Borderline Personality Disorder – Introduction to Symptoms & Causes
Mixed Emotions and Foggy Brain I’m 6 days into my diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD). As of right now, it seems my therapist is focusing on BPD. I do not know very much about HPD, yet. I’ve the good fortune of a Monday snow day, turning the regular 2-day…
Forget Everything I’ve Said – I’ve Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder
The Beginning of a New Journey February 9th, 2022. Diagnosis day, again. Last diagnosis days were over 20 years ago. This included four different diagnosis by experts – four different opinions on why I was the way I was. I’m over 20 years of living with a brain I somehow knew wasn’t operating properly. As…
Trauma, Flashbacks and Dissociative Disorders
I want to write. I want to express. I have so much I want to say. I don’t know where to start. It has been a while. The heart is an interesting thing. Not the heart – the muscle that keeps me alive. The emotional heart. Maybe, more correctly, the emotional body – how much…